2011 resolutions..

As we draw to the end of 2010,I find myself quit satisfy when I had miqa and my own house. :) Thanks Allah for the gifts and feeling to feel happy and...bahagia....

2010 also make myself a bit stronger after gone through several obstacles in marriage, career and friendship.

Okla let's not talk about the past *deep breath*

I have 5 2011resolutions to be completed. Try to give a shoot ya ....bang bang ;0

Lose weight

Now my weight after delivered is 49kg... Have to reduce 5 more kg!

How?

1.Aerodance class a week,

2.Go to work by lrt (so that I can walk more and more)

3.Using stairs!

Enjoy life to the fullest

Through out 2010, I was busy in getting baby, pregnancy & confinement time..so I decided to get mental & physical therapy for 2011.

How?

1.Organize holiday: Krabi, Bali

2.Massage twice a year

3.Watching life band/showcase

4.Reciting at least 1 page of Al Quran after solat.

Spend time with Miqa and Hubby

My job scope most of the time did not allow me to do this, however I will try my best to balance this.

How?

1. Forcing Hubby to follow in any of my social xtvt (e.g. join trip to Bali, join watching showcase etc.)

2. Allocating every weekend with miqa and sleep with him every night.

3. Go back to kampung every month and spend at least twice a week at mom-in-laws.

Conducting reunion for FIKI'S

FIKI'S stand for fara.ieyra.kak ai.ieja.syahrul. We were close friend during school time and I really wish this reunion will be happened next year.

How?

1. Will personally call/sme them to organize this.

Spend less, Save more

Will try my best on this.

How?

1. Additional 10k a year in my ASB

2. Open a saving account/sspn for miqa

3. Avoiding to lepak at shopping complex ;p

Itu ajela my 2011 resolutions. Mmg akan kene gelakkan je la tp that's only ME who know myself well.... Aku aje tau berape limit and kapasiti aku kan? so peduli je la org nk kate ape kan...

aku kn jenis bantaii n blasah ikut cara aku kan....hikhikhikhik....

ops: xnak bgtau tp nk tulis jugak tahun ni I had lost a friend....just take care urself in whtver u face...and hope everything that you wish will become true...ameen..

balance life?

My dance teacher, Noverm sms'ed' me:
Hi sayang....where have you been? Didn't turn up to my class last week, today we got class, don't forget..

I replied:
Sorry Noverm..I was super duper busy lately, got an event during weekend and somemore my father not feeling well so I have to balik kg on Friday. But most of the reasons why I cannot attend class is because I got meeting during the class time.

Noverm:
Wah, you are workholic! Cannot even take a break and attend my class??

I replied:
Sorry Noverm, perhaps you can exclude me for a time-being :(

Noverm:
Hey I initiate one class to a busy people who cannot come after work like you, you want to join? Aerodance every wed, 7.15 am- 8.00 am. If you're interested, kindly get d payment done by 2day as I need d confirmation of headcount done.
I replied:
Yeayyyy...pls count me in
Noverm:
Okay! Dun just bz w work. Balance healthy lifestyle yang penting. Sweet girl like u nanti stress sampai tak cantik how?

I like the last statement.....:)
Not because she said me sweet girl ok!!
But It's so true.........
In life we should be balance....
When I look at to my sicked ayah...
I wonder..end up sekeras mane yang kite keje bile kite sakit, family kite sendiri akan bertungkus lumus menjage kite! Bukan boss kite...not event our staff...company? setakat buat collection je la kalau kite meninggal!

kan?

Terselak pic gmbr2 sekolah dulu..

As I look back on all that's happened..growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me -- there were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed and cried together. As I look back on those days, I realize how much I truly miss you . The past may be gone forever..and whatever the future holds, our todays make the memories of tomorrow. So, my lifetime friend, it is with all my heart that I send you my love, hoping that you'll always carry my smile with you, for all we have meant to each other and for whatever the future may hold.

Rindu zaman itu.....Dan kalau diberi peluang untuk aku pegi balik zaman tu, byk bende aku nk betulkan! hahahahahahahah.......

the cycle of life

I think I had pass the 2nd phase of my life after I had Miqa .....

Hurm... see the picture:

This is our first date, the photo taken on 4th August 2006. No love during this time ;p

After knowing mohd fahmie idzul around a month, I can feel the chemistry..we started flirting and move to our next step, be more serious after he got job at Terengganu. I didn't have any hope on him....ya serious! But I know he the only man that I can trust on that time.....and fully love me....

After couple of years be dating, he proposed me via my mother and I agreed on that.. we got married!

Few pics of honeymoon to flash the memory back...

and....after almost 2 years......Doc said I was pregnant! What else can I say...... Speechless...

Antara ready or not..

see my preggy picture! I was so ugly during this time...

9 months and half after that...miqa was born with only 2.7kg.. he was just a little boy....

and believe me, the first moment I saw him...it was like love at the first sight.......

so i'm waiting for my 3rd phase of life....4th phase...5th phase....6th phase....

It's full of surprise right?!

Surprise on what happen if miqa in school already!

what happen if miqa have adik in 4,5 years later?!

what happen to me? my physical appearance? trust me...i will put many many effort if my size becoming XL! :p

what will be in 4,5,6 years frm now on..................???

did my battery recharging!

Some said...the only way to recharge your mind is going to holiday....

I did it......

and it was so so awesome....

Love the land of Tha-Lang...;p

money can buy everything?

I love shopping. I love buying handbags, shoes, make up and not to forget baby thingy as well. Huhuhu...sometimes hubby said 'no, we doesn't need romper for miqa' [example]..I still refuse to buy jugak. But, I'm not a pro-branded person, sometimes yes! Depend la. If watch I prefer to have a branded and quality one. Depend... Tapi Basically I love shopping!
Always thought that how best if I could buy anything I want. How best if I'm coming from richest clan in the world! Or how best if suddenly someone willing to give me 10000 billion ke kan, which I can live without working everyday. hahahhahaha...

Ya, I have the sense that money can buy anything, ya I mean if you have money you can buy anything you like right? Name it...BMW? LV handbag? Coach? Holiday to Paris? Cruise around world?...These can create exciting, amusement and happiness right? ;D

But, when I read this quote that I found from a website, I wonder ya....there are also things that money couldn't buy...... so sad right!

Money can buy a house but not home .

Money can buy food but not appetite .

Money can buy a bed but not sleep .

Money can buy a book but not knowledge .
Money can buy a clock but not time .
Money can buy medicine but not health .

Money can buy position but not respect .

Money can buy blood but not life .

Money can buy sex but not love .
Money can buy insurance but not safety .

MONEY CAN'T BUY EVERYTHING. A HUMAN'S DETERMINATION CAN.
Pstt: Money can buy sex, but not love? Teringat prosti****... ya, so true right!

2.40 am notes!

Life is weird...It's weird.. sometimes you feel happy, sometimes you feel sad...it's makes your path up & down..mcm roda!

I am experiencing too in my own little life...

When happiness comes, I will smile dgn hati yang puassssss and lega......

But when sadness comes, it will draw me closer to Allah..asking solution for the sadness..

It's make sense right? What a pathetic of me. I'm just a tiny forgetful Allah's Slave!

There are few things that I want to change if I've be given the opportunity to change my history.. ya.. actually many things! Example..... hurm....argh... should not tell here right... I prefer to keep it for my own ;p

But trust me...you will learn from it..learn from life is better...

*merapu pukul 2.40 am sbb x bole tido! bole?*

a piece of today life..

Everything looks ok at home. Miqa always make me smile with his keletah! Papa miqa too.. doing well with his blackberry, laptop, sport channel & white T-shirt pagoda at home ;-p.

The one is not ok of course at my workplace. I'm a little bit tired. For the whole week I have to stay back until 9.00 to 10.00 pm! Hurm...what else can I say when you already minat with the work and it is your own periuk nasi kan... Xnak la citer byk2 psl keje... It's still under control ;p

Jom tgk pics miqa pg td.. he's so naughty when I didnt want to take him out from his playpan.
Ops...nak update jugak last week, miqa jatuh gedebuk from my bed while I'm getting my office attire in the next room, papa miqa on that time was terlelap tiba2 after main cak2 dgn miqa (bole?)
So that's why I dont want to get him out from his bed while I'm getting ready to go to office pagi2.

miqa w his cousin, emil.

miqa w his new car, bought by tok ayah
miqa bile x suke lame2 dlm playpan
n he started crying...mummy get me out! get me out! helppppppppp...

.............

You're texted her to convey your appreciation for the claim.
I'm ok for that.

You're texted her to wish happy birthday
I'm ok for that, in fact I'm happy that you are wishing your friend!

You're texted her to say that you are in MC
I'm ok because she is the boss.

You're texted her asking for belanja makan & thanks for keep her birthday cake for you
I'm ok for that.

But when you call her - 'mummy' in the text (of course in your friendly tone)....I'm in doubt..... and a little bit geli.....

God sign?

When I heard the news of natural disaster at Indon, tsunami @ Mentawai Island and volcany @ Yogja...deep inside my heart said is this a God's sign? Funny to hear that one friend of mine said 'Indon ni mcm nak rosak je la lps satu2'.....Just want to recap, if you guys remembered on 2004, Acheh mostly gone due to the huge waves crashing into their coastal. This is not affected only Indon, many countries had faced the same trauma including us as well.. The catastrophe has touched the hearts of humanity with people from all round the world trying to assist financially. There were many versions of stories on why this disaster happened to us especially it had caused major damages to Acheh... Scientifically said there was a underwater 9.0-magnitude earthquake between the Indonesian island of Sumatra and the Indian Andaman Islands. (just to reveal what did I remembered je la) and bla..bla..bla. However, the unscientific reason is more likely attracted my attention ;D Some said it because people at Indon no longer have their faith to Allah, an another story said it is because of many people there had associated Allah with other, practice syirik etc.. bla..bla..bla.....

I'm not trying to say as a pious person should say, but to me I'm still have a faith to Allah, still believe angels, books, prophets, fate & will and the judgmental day...Any person of faith will strive to reconcile the death and destruction caused by natural disasters and learn from the mistake.

Arghh....why am I suppose to be so serious....!
No just thinking wonders can happen if we only believe that God has HIS GREATNESS. And we just like a little ant which can be squished easily if we forget on how to be grateful on what we have (just talking myself too) ;D

hahhahahaha entah ape2 ntah aku merepek ni la hai...





(gambar sekadar hiasan ;p)

my difficult people @ office

letih la nk layan dgn this type of people @ office!

1. Org yg smbong bile ditanye baik2
2. Org yg keep complaining everything tapi bile disuruh cari solution die pula yg senyap
3. Org yg perasan die hebat and know everything from A-Z
4. Org yg suke tikam belakang kawan! Horrornye!
5. Org yg xde civic manners to environment - e.g. letak mug kat pantry berhari2 then x retinye nk cuci!
   
6. Boss yang tak tahu nk control anger and hot-tempered!

from the past to present....

What will you do if your heart is broken?

My heart was broken once.. Life became dark.. It's like your legs had been cut into pieces and nobody dare to help you. Like you can't get through your daily routine without feeling the wave of pain sweep over you, without sensing that knot in the pit of your stomach, without dwelling on what went wrong? It's really painful...I always told myself ' time would heal the wound'...
And it's true only after 6 years my hurt had recovered days by days.....
Tu dulu la..org kate mase kene penyakit cinta! ;)

Now I'm so grateful to have my own family, my beloved 'budak omel' and his papa.
They really completed my life....

The reason why I'm writing this, after heard the story of my heart broken's friend, *a long long long time friend ya..I'm wondering in any relationship you have to love yourself first... That's what I did even until now, had married with 1 children... Hubby used to say I'm a selfish person sometimes..ya it's true...the past experience had taught me...give me a lesson to love myself more and more.....
However in certain sense, when you get married and it's come to family and in-laws matter, I have to be tolerate in many ways... have respect to others as well... Ya..I have no problem on that... Me and hubby did conflict on that as well (biaselah kahwin lidah mane tak tergigit kan) ...but we always have discussion on that..always have argument..always fighting for each rights..;P...and yet we manage to handle it from time to time... the best formula in marriage it's having wise communication part husband and wife! hahhaa...that's another topic..will discuss that in other entry la ek;)

To me it's so true when your heart is super duper broken...it will affect your entire life..if it's not 100%, perhaps 30% like what happen in my life..and apparently it had changed my mentality and my perception though.......

so to the sad friend...just love yourself first....and here is a Campbell soup for you...;) hope you may recover soon from the sadness...there is always a shine in front of you...let's rock the world! yeah!

my funny dream ...hopefullyy...

Naik bus dgn miqa sampai LRT Station..
Dkt LRT Station, naik cab sampai Pesona Villa Apartment!
And the worst part, dalam cab miqa kentut busuk giileer!
Mujur pakcik cab tu gelak2 bile aku minta maaf kalau ade bau busuk....
*muke toye*

hahhahahah.....what a funny dream!

Dream?

Ya...i hope yesterday incident was a dream..

a bad dream....

really bad one!

for RFI

Jangan ingat rambut ko pacak...ko smart la!
Jangan ingat rambut ko becolor...budget mcm model la!
Jangan ingat muke ko licin..ko hensem sgt la...
Jangan ingat wajah ko jambu....orang suke ko la...

Kalau dah perangai menyombong, bongkak, bangga diri, berlagak......
Muke hensem mcmane pun ko tetap nampak mcm monyet!

Ha...PUAS HATI AKU!

off the thought plsss

It's not good to have this feeling.. not nice!
Feeling like you miss someone who are not suppose to be missed!
Used to be a very very good friend, ya I guess ;)

Shit!

Please please Allah help me..
Off the things that I dont want now...
All I want is to love & to be loved by hubby, miqa, friends & entire family..

citer miqa lagi..aishhh

Things getting okay now at my workplace, after some demarcation of works been done, we be more focus and no such things like taichi sane sini! ;) Though no longer be under previous big boss, En Azizi, still we always see each other, I'm not sad for that anymore! En Azizi always said that our team is a special team and I always bear it in my mind....huhuhuhu...

Ok forget about work!

Today Miqa wake me up with a very 'nice' smell! Bole pagi2 cenonet aku tu 'berry'! Hahaha.. rasenye spnjg 4 bulan lebih die hidup dgn aku, ini baru 1st time die berak pagi2 buta! Nak tegelak pun ade sbb die buat muke tak suke! Perhaps the things inside his pampers disturbing his sleep and he like merengek2 sampai la aku angkat die smula from his playpan! Bile da angkat senyap and pandang2 washroom seem like minta aku tolong cucikan buntut die! hahahhaha... What a clever boy!! Siap cuci his smile and speak his own languange.... Agaknye die nk ckp thanks mummy cucikan berak miqa! hahhahahahhahahah........

Sampai ke ofis, I still can see his smile in my mind.. aishh..miqa buat mummy gile bayang!

my 4 month miqa..

Ape yg budak berumur 4 bulan tgh fikir skrg? Aku slalu tertanya2 bile miqa pandang aku. Ape yg die ckp dlm hati mase tgk aku pandang die? Hopefully ish mummy aku ni cute pulak! Ke hai makcik ni x habis2 membebel, bising ar! hahhahahahhaha.... okla whatever that he whispered inside his heart, mind.... I believe it's something miracle that God had created us. Setiap hari Miqa improve emotionally. Example, aku pegang botol susu die n letak depan die and see his reaction. Biasenye kaki die menggelitis gelitis which is tandanye die nak susu. Tapi semalam bile aku tunjuk botol susu kat die, die buat bunyi merengek. Aku try bagi then die tolak2 puting botol susu tu dgn lidah which mean die xnak. 'Aik mummy ni kan aku da merengek rengek td, aku xnak la tu' - assuming that he said that to me ;0

This entry is actually to wish happy 4 months anniversary to my only miqa.
Mummy always love you. You are always be my baby....
Dah besar nanti mummy x harap ape2 dari miqa, cuma mummy harap mummy bole beri pelajaran n didikan yg sempurna & baik untuk miqa sbb mummy percaya didikan yang sempurna & baik sahajelah yang boleh membentuk miqa menjadi a good person.

ameen.

Being a Mother..Learning as I go ;)

Saat melihat dua jalur garisan pada pregnancy test 1 hari sebelum umat Islam meraikan Aidilfitri 2009 yg lalu, aku & hubby bagai di awang awangan ;p, mcm x percaye aku bakal bergelar ibu. Sungguh! Padahal bende tulah aku selalu doakan dan rungutkan pada hubby after 1 year and half we got married. Mule2 baru kawin, xdelah aku stress psl anak tapi bile kawan2 & family dok asyik tanya timbul pula rase berkobar2 nak ade zuriat sendiri. Tengok orang lain happy dengan anak masing2 aku pun teringin jugak! Lumrah manusia kan.... tak pernah puas dan bersyukur dengan ape yang ade....

Tapi walau mcmanepun, aku tetap bersyukur, Alhamdulillah...sekurang2 nye penantian aku & hubby nak bergelar parents dah termakbul.. Hurm, family aku lah yg paling excited mase tu!

Speaking of nightmares while in pregnancy..I read some one experience vivid dreams. Seeing how I was one of those people who dreamt weird dreams beforehand, I wasn’t sure how more vivid it could get….well it did... 1st trimester - betul org kate perempuan mengandung ni ragamnye lain2. Aku punyer sickness mmg jatuh kpd kategori teruk la jugak, itu pun aku x layan sgt kalau dilayan maunye aku amik unpaid leave 9 bulan! Aku punyer ragam, asal mkn je muntah, asal mkn je muntah! Mkn x boleh lambat kalau tak muntah lah aku spnjg hari tu! Pastu asyik mengantuk je dan perangai malas MasyAllah menjd2, mengalahkan anak raja nk dilayannye! Smpaikan nk on radio kerete pun aku suh hubby tekankan butang switch on tu! Tp aku control jugklah perangai ngade2 tu sbb hubby mase tu keje dkt Tganu so kitorg jmpe weekend je kan! Sape nk layan woo kalau hari2 aku buat prangai gitu! Tp time aku xleh lupe, stiap kali nk balik and pegi keje nk redah jammed tu bolehlah aku termuntah, mujur standby plastik tepi tmpat duduk, terus tgn kiri amik plastik and at the same time tgn kanan pegang stereng kete! Uwek uwek uwek aku muntah smpai org lorong sebelah duk usha2... Lama2 dah jd immune dah ;p hehhee...

2nd trimester - barulah mood aku OK and semangat nk mkn kembali normal. Dah dtg nafsu makan, ha brat bdn pun naik lah 5 kilo! Tapi ramai org cakap perut aku kecik lagi smpaikan aku dah pregnant 6 bulan pun budak2 ofis ramai x prasan 'kebuyunganku'! Apakah! Bile pegi check up, doctor ckp OK je, aku normal cume hemoglobin aku je la rendah. Bab tu mmg dari zaman ank darah lg aku mmg x bole derma darah sbbkan low hemoglobin tu kan.. itu mmg xde excuse lah! Aku makan sebaldi kerang pun darah aku mmg gitu... tapi doctor bg la jugak iron supplements plus other supplements untuk aku and baby dalam perut dpt energy! hehehh. Waktu ni jugak, aku enjoy pegi travel, Tganu & Penang! Hurm...menikmati seafood dkt Tganu & pasembor dkt Penang mmg x kanh aku lupekan! Buknye x penah makan semua2 tu tp makan waktu mengandung aku rse macm 1001 nikmat la! ececece.. Tapi yg lecehnye tabiat muntah aku x berkurang langsung! Kali ni, kalau aku makan byk, mesti terkeluar separuh! ;p Hubby dgn pak mentua geleng2 kepala je la.. Rugi rugi rugi..makan ketam 150 hengget!

3rd trimester - Masuk 8 bulan mood aku nk cuti bersalin membuak2. Buat keje pun xde semngt! Ksian boss aku terpksalah hadap aku yg asyik MC je. Dlm 2 minggu msti aku MC satu hari! hehehe... btul wei aku da start sakit pinggang, ada carpal turnel syndrome, muntah2 tetappppp... kali ni kdg2 tgh ketawa pun, tetibe telan air liur aku da berlari cari singki nk muntah! Pitam2 pun slalu kene especially bile tgh stress!

After all I was enjoying my pregnancy time sampailaa lahir si kenit buah hati aku tu. Fareeq Miqael bin Mohd Fahmie Idzul diberi name. Maksud Fareeq is Ketua, Miqael pula is malaikat penjaga rezeki. Asalnye nak letak Fareeq tp mase dlm labor room Hubby dpt transfer keje ke KL so both of we assumed thaat perhaps that's a sign of rezeki baby la so we add Miqael at the back. Plus aku pun suke sbrnye that name. And until now we call our little baby Miqa. Miqa was so tiny when he was born on 21st May 2010 @ 8.34 pm. He was just 2.7 kg! Even his skin pun dry mcm ala kulit Benjamin Button pulak aku tgk ;p Tapi Alhamdulilah after 1 months berat die da bertambah n kulit die dah normal. Mase tu aku sgt happy sbb aku breastfeedkan Miqa even not via directly, kene pump n masukn dlm botol. Mujur parents aku n mentua ade n byk bantu aku.

Today Miqa dah 3 months plus. My favourite time is when nappy & feeding time with miqa. Sangat bahagia bile Miqa senyum2 mase aku nk pakaikan die dypers. Berbunga2 hati aku bile time susu tangan2 die merayap pegang rambut terjuntai aku la, pegang rantai aku la, pegang baju aku la... haishhhhh....
Apepun ragam, senyuman, ketawa, tangisan die segala-galanya bagi aku skrg. Until now, I'm still learning to be a good mother. And hopefully for the 2nd baby (expected to be 4 to 5 years later) I'll be better!