Now I'm speechless, over the edge,
I'm just breathless
I never thought that
I'd catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that
I'd get hit by this love bug again......
This song was popular on the radio last 2 weeks ago. It has not been on the radio lately. Not only did I hear it the other night when I was feeling down, but early in this morning, Famy and I were curled up in bed and his clock-radio went off.
It was that song again!
I smiled as I laid in his arms, kissed him on his neck, and went back to sleep.
That song keeps getting better and better for me.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
empathy??
Aku terjumpa sekeping nota. Nota yang ditulis di atas kertas A4 biasa. Ada maksud tersirat, yang penting aku betul2 capture the last words esspecially perkataan 'empathy' tu. Can we do feel empathy for them, rather than blaming for their mistakes??
Kau kate aku kekasih hingga ke akhir hayat!
Tapi ape jadi bila ade krisis mcm ni!
Kau senyap, Kau diam
Bila aku minta jawapan
Bila aku jelaskan segala-galanya
Ada kau terima?
Mungkin kau anggap aku beri alasan,
cari kesalahan...cari masalah....emosi tak bertempat
melampau batas....
Aku mengaku aku memang seperti yang kau anggap!
Tapi ada kau pernah fikir macamane aku boleh
keluarkan perkataan macam tu?
Bukankah setiap perubahan itu ada penyebabnya!
Aku berubah sebab apa? Aku berani berkata mcm tu sebab apa??
Susah ke kau nak ade perasaan empathy dekat aku???
[Empathy= Identification with and understanding of another's situation, feelings, and motives]
Kau kate aku kekasih hingga ke akhir hayat!
Tapi ape jadi bila ade krisis mcm ni!
Kau senyap, Kau diam
Bila aku minta jawapan
Bila aku jelaskan segala-galanya
Ada kau terima?
Mungkin kau anggap aku beri alasan,
cari kesalahan...cari masalah....emosi tak bertempat
melampau batas....
Aku mengaku aku memang seperti yang kau anggap!
Tapi ada kau pernah fikir macamane aku boleh
keluarkan perkataan macam tu?
Bukankah setiap perubahan itu ada penyebabnya!
Aku berubah sebab apa? Aku berani berkata mcm tu sebab apa??
Susah ke kau nak ade perasaan empathy dekat aku???
[Empathy= Identification with and understanding of another's situation, feelings, and motives]
cicada syndrome
cicada in malay we called cengkerik/riang2.....
aku rase aku terkena sydrome yang aku reka sendiri name die! sydrome cicada! sigh ;)
kenapa?
sebab cengkerik kan sifatnya siang2 die senyap tapi bile malam ligat pulak berbunyinye kan!
aku benci bila hari2 bila datang office aku kene pikir mcm2 bende yang berserabut dalam kepala ni! dari A sampai Z..... i hate this part! really hate!
ape relation nye dengan cicada sydrome tu? sebab waktu siang aku senyap, aku happy buat x tau tapi bila tiba malam semua masalah tadi bertimpa2 menyemak kat kepala aku ni sampai aku x bole tido! mcm bunyi cengkerik tu......bising giler! buat aku terjage n buat aku menangis......
cutttttttttttttttttttt!!!!
drama je la, lawak pukul 4 pagi semalam!
aku rase aku terkena sydrome yang aku reka sendiri name die! sydrome cicada! sigh ;)
kenapa?
sebab cengkerik kan sifatnya siang2 die senyap tapi bile malam ligat pulak berbunyinye kan!
aku benci bila hari2 bila datang office aku kene pikir mcm2 bende yang berserabut dalam kepala ni! dari A sampai Z..... i hate this part! really hate!
ape relation nye dengan cicada sydrome tu? sebab waktu siang aku senyap, aku happy buat x tau tapi bila tiba malam semua masalah tadi bertimpa2 menyemak kat kepala aku ni sampai aku x bole tido! mcm bunyi cengkerik tu......bising giler! buat aku terjage n buat aku menangis......
cutttttttttttttttttttt!!!!
drama je la, lawak pukul 4 pagi semalam!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
A Dozen Reasons You are a Happy Person
We generally are happy people, and we must train our brain to think so. hehehe...
We often overlook how we feel. The small things we do usually show that we are just happy people, but we don't realize that. If you did at least a few things on this list, you are a happy person. You just need to take them into account. All these I got from an article by DC Sean.
You Laugh Out Loud (i think this is Me!)
When you laugh, your body pump out endorphins, the chemicals that boost energy and alleviate depression, and the stress hormones will also drop.
You Drink Plenty of Water
You don't have to drink 8 glasses of water each day. As long as you keep hydrated, drink water with meals, and when you are thirsty, you are doing just fine.
You are In Tune with Nature
It can lower stress and promote a sense of well being. Even if you just sit on a park bench for 15 minutes and simply being outdoor is a healing act in itself.
You Hang Out with Friends
When you are troubled and you unload your burden to your friends, your body and mind will feel lighter as though the problem is solved when in fact it is not.
You Eat Vegetables and Fruits
The darker and more colorful fruits and vegetables like broccoli, red peppers, blueberries, and banana, the more nutrients they contain.
You Wash Your Hands
Flu, colds, and other common illnesses are spread through touching. Wash your hands thoroughly with soap and rub them in warm water for at least 20 seconds.
You Floss Your Teeth
Not only you ward off gum disease, you also keep your beautiful smile intact even if you only floss once a week. Research also suggests that having gum disease may increase your odds of cardiovascular disease, stroke and diabetes.
You Practice Deep Breathing
Deep breathing cuts stress instantly. Try six slow breaths per minute to lower blood pressure.
You Get Enough SleepHaving enough sleep enhances your mood, memory, and problem-solving ability. On an average, seven to eight hours of sleep nightly is ideal.
You Have a Pet (sadly to say i never have pet!)
It doesn't matter how terrible your day was, you forget it as soon as you pet your furry friend. It gives you instant stress reduction.
You Work Your Brain
When you keep your brain sharp by learning or doing something new, you promote longevity.
You are Loved Realizing that your family and friends love you, release feel-good chemicals like serotonin.
We do these things almost every day, but we don't think that they make us a happy person. Think about it, if we are not happy people, we would not bother to take care of ourselves so well, or pay attention to what we do. We just need to have gratitude in small things. In other word, I can say why do we make our life so complicated, right? Just fikir lebih kurang je la kan! We are generally happy people, and we must train our brain to think so.
We often overlook how we feel. The small things we do usually show that we are just happy people, but we don't realize that. If you did at least a few things on this list, you are a happy person. You just need to take them into account. All these I got from an article by DC Sean.
You Laugh Out Loud (i think this is Me!)
When you laugh, your body pump out endorphins, the chemicals that boost energy and alleviate depression, and the stress hormones will also drop.
You Drink Plenty of Water
You don't have to drink 8 glasses of water each day. As long as you keep hydrated, drink water with meals, and when you are thirsty, you are doing just fine.
You are In Tune with Nature
It can lower stress and promote a sense of well being. Even if you just sit on a park bench for 15 minutes and simply being outdoor is a healing act in itself.
You Hang Out with Friends
When you are troubled and you unload your burden to your friends, your body and mind will feel lighter as though the problem is solved when in fact it is not.
You Eat Vegetables and Fruits
The darker and more colorful fruits and vegetables like broccoli, red peppers, blueberries, and banana, the more nutrients they contain.
You Wash Your Hands
Flu, colds, and other common illnesses are spread through touching. Wash your hands thoroughly with soap and rub them in warm water for at least 20 seconds.
You Floss Your Teeth
Not only you ward off gum disease, you also keep your beautiful smile intact even if you only floss once a week. Research also suggests that having gum disease may increase your odds of cardiovascular disease, stroke and diabetes.
You Practice Deep Breathing
Deep breathing cuts stress instantly. Try six slow breaths per minute to lower blood pressure.
You Get Enough SleepHaving enough sleep enhances your mood, memory, and problem-solving ability. On an average, seven to eight hours of sleep nightly is ideal.
You Have a Pet (sadly to say i never have pet!)
It doesn't matter how terrible your day was, you forget it as soon as you pet your furry friend. It gives you instant stress reduction.
You Work Your Brain
When you keep your brain sharp by learning or doing something new, you promote longevity.
You are Loved Realizing that your family and friends love you, release feel-good chemicals like serotonin.
We do these things almost every day, but we don't think that they make us a happy person. Think about it, if we are not happy people, we would not bother to take care of ourselves so well, or pay attention to what we do. We just need to have gratitude in small things. In other word, I can say why do we make our life so complicated, right? Just fikir lebih kurang je la kan! We are generally happy people, and we must train our brain to think so.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
sexual harassment
Aderlah satu cerite nk share. Pengalaman paling ngeri jugak la dlm hidup aku. Even aku selalu ade banyak pengalaman yang menakutkan tapi yang ini aku rase phobia n trauma jugakla...
Kisahnye mcm ni semalam aku dinner dengan family in laws aku la cam biase dekat Medan Melawati tu. Dalam kul 9 lebih gitu after dinner, mama n papa kene g klinik dulu sbb miera (adik ipar aku) sakit mate so aku terpaksa balik dengan botak (adik ipar aku jugak) n along (biras aku @ wife botak) since aku kene amik kete aku dekat umah mentua. so sampai2 rumah mentua aku tu emil pulak buat hal. emil tu anak dieorg la. baby lagi la dah setahun lebih umurnye. budak kecik tu kalau buat hal mmg ganas jugakla. tambah2 pulak along yang tengah sarat mengandung anak kedua tu x larat pulak nak keluar kereta, nak melayan emil lagi. botak masuk umah mentua aku tu sebab nk amik barang so sementara botak dekat dalam umah, aku temankan lah along n melayan emil yang tengah meragam tu sebab kejap lagi dieorg nak balik umah dieorg sendiri kan. emil nak pegi kat kete aku. so aku pun dukung la die ke kereta aku. By the time, aku mcm perasan ade sorang indian guy dok lalu lalang depan kawasan perumahan mentua aku tu mmg aku x syak ape2 sbb aku n along fikir budak2 kawasan umah tu gak saje jalan2 amik angin. aku letak emil dekat driver seat bagik die peluang pegang stereng kete aku tu. ha senyap die sambil gelak duk tekan2 lampu signal la, viper la hon la... aku perati kan die dari pintu kete aku sesambil pegang jugak la tangan die, takut die jatuh! then yang surprise nye bile aku pusing badan aku, indian guy tadi betul2 ade belakang aku. spontan je die cuit bahu aku. aku menjerit macam org kena rogol la! berani die cuit aku kan! indian guy tu terkejut (aku rase die terkejut sbb jeritan aku tu mmg teramat kuat). emil nangis sbb terkejut mak ngah die jerit kuat sgt, along yang di dalam kete tengah tahan2 sakit tu pun kuar dari kete terus die tanye 'ape, kenape kenape?'. hurm budak indian yang tercegat lagi depan aku tu terus blah. pastu kuar la pulak jiran sebelah, bobo, baba fatin n botak pun terlari2 kuar sebab suasana cam kecoh. sebelum blah, budak indian tu bole la kan tunjuk 'anu' die kat aku ngan along! saba je la kan......... pastu botak n bobo g kejar budak india tu n suruh aku,along n emil masuk umah. kelam kabut kiteorg masuk umah siap kunci lagi! aku terus minum air sbb kaki aku mengigil2. emil lak x habis2 nangis. dia cam tau je ape dah jadi! along yang sakit perut sbb die tgh sarat benar nk bersalin tu terus hilang sakitnye.......... after that along call papa n ceritekan ape dah jadi, few minutes after that papa balik, then botak pulak balik. botak ckp die x jumpe budak tu lari dekat mane!
since budak tu x buat pape dekat aku n along so kiteorg x jadik report police. tapi papa dah call kawan die, police area melawati la jugak, suh ronda2 kawasan perumahan tu sbb hari tu pun ade kes ragut pakai parang dekat depan rumah. kene hati2 jugak even kat depan umah sekarang pun dah x selamat.
so kiteorg buat kesimpulan, budak laki india tu either gile seks or nk ragut aku sbb mase aku dukung emil aku pegang handbag sekali. mungkin pas dengar jeritan aku x jadik die nak meragut nye kan.(bobo cakap aku jerit satu lorong kawasan perumahan tu dengar ;)) yelah lepas aku jerit tu, terkejut die sampai die sempat nak urut2 dada die, pulak tu si emil lak nangis then dengar pulak suare along lagi minta tolong... ha...tak jadiklah agenda die tu kan!
tulah aku rase budak india tu x profesional la nk meragut or nak mencabul ke cam kelakar pun ade... tapi aku rase nak gelak sbrnye bile die tunjukkan anu die tu, cam x kene je tp nasib baik malam kan so xdelah clear mane aku nampak tu! ekekekekekekekekekekekekeke......
apepun, sampai tengah malam tau kaki aku menggeletar x hilang2. lepas papa suh aku amik air sembayang n bace ayat kursi byk kali baru release seket.
so moral of the story, kalau org nak ragut ke, cabul ke atau ape2 cubaan yang merbahaya kan diri jerit kuat2 mcm aku ni ha.
Kisahnye mcm ni semalam aku dinner dengan family in laws aku la cam biase dekat Medan Melawati tu. Dalam kul 9 lebih gitu after dinner, mama n papa kene g klinik dulu sbb miera (adik ipar aku) sakit mate so aku terpaksa balik dengan botak (adik ipar aku jugak) n along (biras aku @ wife botak) since aku kene amik kete aku dekat umah mentua. so sampai2 rumah mentua aku tu emil pulak buat hal. emil tu anak dieorg la. baby lagi la dah setahun lebih umurnye. budak kecik tu kalau buat hal mmg ganas jugakla. tambah2 pulak along yang tengah sarat mengandung anak kedua tu x larat pulak nak keluar kereta, nak melayan emil lagi. botak masuk umah mentua aku tu sebab nk amik barang so sementara botak dekat dalam umah, aku temankan lah along n melayan emil yang tengah meragam tu sebab kejap lagi dieorg nak balik umah dieorg sendiri kan. emil nak pegi kat kete aku. so aku pun dukung la die ke kereta aku. By the time, aku mcm perasan ade sorang indian guy dok lalu lalang depan kawasan perumahan mentua aku tu mmg aku x syak ape2 sbb aku n along fikir budak2 kawasan umah tu gak saje jalan2 amik angin. aku letak emil dekat driver seat bagik die peluang pegang stereng kete aku tu. ha senyap die sambil gelak duk tekan2 lampu signal la, viper la hon la... aku perati kan die dari pintu kete aku sesambil pegang jugak la tangan die, takut die jatuh! then yang surprise nye bile aku pusing badan aku, indian guy tadi betul2 ade belakang aku. spontan je die cuit bahu aku. aku menjerit macam org kena rogol la! berani die cuit aku kan! indian guy tu terkejut (aku rase die terkejut sbb jeritan aku tu mmg teramat kuat). emil nangis sbb terkejut mak ngah die jerit kuat sgt, along yang di dalam kete tengah tahan2 sakit tu pun kuar dari kete terus die tanye 'ape, kenape kenape?'. hurm budak indian yang tercegat lagi depan aku tu terus blah. pastu kuar la pulak jiran sebelah, bobo, baba fatin n botak pun terlari2 kuar sebab suasana cam kecoh. sebelum blah, budak indian tu bole la kan tunjuk 'anu' die kat aku ngan along! saba je la kan......... pastu botak n bobo g kejar budak india tu n suruh aku,along n emil masuk umah. kelam kabut kiteorg masuk umah siap kunci lagi! aku terus minum air sbb kaki aku mengigil2. emil lak x habis2 nangis. dia cam tau je ape dah jadi! along yang sakit perut sbb die tgh sarat benar nk bersalin tu terus hilang sakitnye.......... after that along call papa n ceritekan ape dah jadi, few minutes after that papa balik, then botak pulak balik. botak ckp die x jumpe budak tu lari dekat mane!
since budak tu x buat pape dekat aku n along so kiteorg x jadik report police. tapi papa dah call kawan die, police area melawati la jugak, suh ronda2 kawasan perumahan tu sbb hari tu pun ade kes ragut pakai parang dekat depan rumah. kene hati2 jugak even kat depan umah sekarang pun dah x selamat.
so kiteorg buat kesimpulan, budak laki india tu either gile seks or nk ragut aku sbb mase aku dukung emil aku pegang handbag sekali. mungkin pas dengar jeritan aku x jadik die nak meragut nye kan.(bobo cakap aku jerit satu lorong kawasan perumahan tu dengar ;)) yelah lepas aku jerit tu, terkejut die sampai die sempat nak urut2 dada die, pulak tu si emil lak nangis then dengar pulak suare along lagi minta tolong... ha...tak jadiklah agenda die tu kan!
tulah aku rase budak india tu x profesional la nk meragut or nak mencabul ke cam kelakar pun ade... tapi aku rase nak gelak sbrnye bile die tunjukkan anu die tu, cam x kene je tp nasib baik malam kan so xdelah clear mane aku nampak tu! ekekekekekekekekekekekekeke......
apepun, sampai tengah malam tau kaki aku menggeletar x hilang2. lepas papa suh aku amik air sembayang n bace ayat kursi byk kali baru release seket.
so moral of the story, kalau org nak ragut ke, cabul ke atau ape2 cubaan yang merbahaya kan diri jerit kuat2 mcm aku ni ha.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
when i am alone....
10 Things that I did when I felt lonely:
1. Watching movies.
I had watched Bride War at GSC, Slumdog Millionaire, Revolutionary Road and 7 Pounds at home. ;)
2. Window Shopping
I had surveyed for my glasses at Mid Valley! Will buy it next month :)
3. Smiling & Talking to strangers at the lifts.
A makcik had approched me at the office's lift yesterday when I smiled and 'hi' her, she asked me where was the HR Department, seen the office's lift is complicated so I brought the makcik to HR by myself. And she thanked me millions times. Sigh ;)
4. Grasping for hugs, but always wanting another hug, I want another one, and another...
I hug my bolster every night!
5. Calling someone closer to you regularly!
I called ibu 2 times everday - just to ask what did ayah cook for her on that day! sigh ;) plus talking to my husband more than 10 times a day via phone not more than 10 minutes, sometimes he called me just to say 'i miss u la' then i replied 'ok la tu' (off course with sparkling smile) and we hang off the phone. After a few hours, I called him back to asked 'what are you doing?', he replied 'keje la syg!' then I said 'ok!' and that's it!
What a simple and weird conversation kan... but we know that we are always remembering each other!
6. Calling friends!
I had called my old collegue during the university's time, Oda and we talked about half an hour. It makes me feel release....
7. Being strong inside out!
This part is difficult! People will see me strong in surface because of the character that I possess. Always smile and 'hi' here and there....sigh!
The fact is I am a sensitive person and I am hardly trying my best to be tougher and stronger now....;)
8. Recharging the memories
I look over an old albums during my childhood at the hometown and the teenage time at school and campus.....the old memories flaming in my head..it's fun! Ops..i saw my wedding albums as well!
9. Hanging out with girlfriends.
I met fizah and lea last few days ago and it was great! It recharged my batteries! I feel like I have my bestfriends back!
Now, looking forward to date with officemates pulak!
10. Remembering, yes remembering, ALLAH is always here.
I realized whenever I'm alone, I pray for more than 5 times a day, which makes me feel good and comfort!
Dear me don't be sad....
I don't mind to be alone, comfortless and cold as there is a time will come to me to be in that condition in just one blessed day. sigh ;)...Ya..when ALLAH asked Izrail to take me out from this universe and stay in the grave until the day of judgement!!!! Of course I can't asked Famy to accompany me right!
Wah tibe2 rase scary....
1. Watching movies.
I had watched Bride War at GSC, Slumdog Millionaire, Revolutionary Road and 7 Pounds at home. ;)
2. Window Shopping
I had surveyed for my glasses at Mid Valley! Will buy it next month :)
3. Smiling & Talking to strangers at the lifts.
A makcik had approched me at the office's lift yesterday when I smiled and 'hi' her, she asked me where was the HR Department, seen the office's lift is complicated so I brought the makcik to HR by myself. And she thanked me millions times. Sigh ;)
4. Grasping for hugs, but always wanting another hug, I want another one, and another...
I hug my bolster every night!
5. Calling someone closer to you regularly!
I called ibu 2 times everday - just to ask what did ayah cook for her on that day! sigh ;) plus talking to my husband more than 10 times a day via phone not more than 10 minutes, sometimes he called me just to say 'i miss u la' then i replied 'ok la tu' (off course with sparkling smile) and we hang off the phone. After a few hours, I called him back to asked 'what are you doing?', he replied 'keje la syg!' then I said 'ok!' and that's it!
What a simple and weird conversation kan... but we know that we are always remembering each other!
6. Calling friends!
I had called my old collegue during the university's time, Oda and we talked about half an hour. It makes me feel release....
7. Being strong inside out!
This part is difficult! People will see me strong in surface because of the character that I possess. Always smile and 'hi' here and there....sigh!
The fact is I am a sensitive person and I am hardly trying my best to be tougher and stronger now....;)
8. Recharging the memories
I look over an old albums during my childhood at the hometown and the teenage time at school and campus.....the old memories flaming in my head..it's fun! Ops..i saw my wedding albums as well!
9. Hanging out with girlfriends.
I met fizah and lea last few days ago and it was great! It recharged my batteries! I feel like I have my bestfriends back!
Now, looking forward to date with officemates pulak!
10. Remembering, yes remembering, ALLAH is always here.
I realized whenever I'm alone, I pray for more than 5 times a day, which makes me feel good and comfort!
Dear me don't be sad....
I don't mind to be alone, comfortless and cold as there is a time will come to me to be in that condition in just one blessed day. sigh ;)...Ya..when ALLAH asked Izrail to take me out from this universe and stay in the grave until the day of judgement!!!! Of course I can't asked Famy to accompany me right!
Wah tibe2 rase scary....
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