keep moving...keep walking...keep running...

In my colorful and short life, I realized that not everything is supposed to become something beautiful and long lasting. Sometimes people come into my life to show me what is right and what is wrong, to show me who should I could be, to teach me to love myself, to teach me to protect my heart first...to protect my kids... to make me feel better for a little while, or to just be someone to walk with at night and spill my life to whatever that he or she feel good with it.

Not everyone is going to stay forever...the feeling towards somebody will never ever be lasting.

But at the end.. I know Ibu & Ayah will always be a place that I could be return to... and I know my husband will be the one who will love me unconditionally. Insyallah..

Whatever white and black things happened in my life, I still have to keep on going and thank them for what they have given me... joy, happiness, sadness, excitement, painful, sympathy, empathy..meaningless and any of related adjectives words.

Keep moving....keep moving....keep moving...

#moveonedt2

yes..time will heal everything

What can heal a broken heart?

A. Time
B. Revenge
C. New love

I tick A. :)
#moveon

Rooftop at Bangkok

Over the last few years, I believe that Bangkok has grown a mantle of glamour and sophisticated and new visitors will be elated by its trendy bars,club & restaurants. Yeay..knowing Bangkok as the city of entertainment, chilling & lepak with awesome people in your life is just perfect!
I love skybar at Sirocco , Lebua. It was a nice heaven place..I swear! The dessert of choc lava was to die for.

Jgn dinilai rupa yang buruk! Seriously I tell u this choc lava taste so goodddddddd. :))

Oh lupe nak perkenalkan the guy with us in the picture is Zul, Hajar's good friend and coincidently be our good friend too. Such a good company coz he is staying & working at Bangkok. Oh he can speaks Thai too. Hahahaha. And oh ya he is single lagi. ;) and I think still available kot. Bole cari die kat my instagram. ;p

More info about Sirocco Lebua can just google je kot. You know where to find. From Sukhumvit we took a cab, cost us around $200 Thai baht (lebih kurang RM20).

The night before we lepak at Sirocco, we went to Above Eleven Rooftop, just nearby from our hotel. Not bad jugala.. the place was quit cozy,not so elegant like Sirocco but still.... a good place to get a beautiful view of the Bangkok City.
Again...more about Above Eleven can just google.;p.
Now i'll let the pictures speak for themselves :)

Halal food in the heart of Bangkok City ~ Usman Thai Food

I think I should post this. When the girls & I were having our ladies' trip at Bangkok last month, we  found a good, cozy & yummy place to eat. And it was a halal thai restaurant! After third time visiting Bangkok, I can say it aint easy to find halal foods there..unless if you went to some areas majority of them are Pakistani & Indian.

Ok back to that restaurant, the place called Usman Restaurant, it is located at Sukhumvit, high-end area where you can find Terminal 21 Shopping Mall nearby. But this restaurant is exactly situated next to Imperial Queen's Park Hotel. Search Sukhumvit Soi 22 road and after 5 minutes walk you can find a yellow signboard of  'Usman Halal Thai Restaurant'.

From 5, I gave 4 1/2 stars. ✔✔✔✔✅ ;).

The sambal belacan is to die for ;)))

Tired....A heart of a woman...

Tired eyes.. (ya can see the clear eyebag)
Tired of the cries
Tired of the lies
Sick of the deciet
Sick of the defeat
Taking no for an answer, but I've still been beat...
Less beats to my heart, a slow and rapid start....
The faster it goes as the pain begins to show
Can't cover it up no more, everything is out..
Wired mouth, can't speak the truth
Trapped in a box. But I am slowly getting loose....
I broke traditon, you did either... ya we broke tradition, sometimes our tries are outside the lines..
We have been conditioned to not make mistakes... but we cannot live that way.

Cause why?

Cause we are human being.
We are not angels
We are not Mahsum like Prophets.

I am tired..
Just tired..
Of all the things..

Allah...can you send angels to give me biggest hugs. Ya.. I need a cuddle.

#not100happydays

Movie Marathon

I remembered the last time I had a movie marathon with my ex uni friends was six years ago.. Maigoddd SIX years ago?? Chop let me think what movies were that.. hurmm..hurm.. ha.. they were The Curious Case of Benjamin Button & Dark Knight kot. Yup...that was the last time. Yup... with Lea, Nadia, Nermin, Cza and few familiar faces whose I forgot the names. Hehehee.

I love watching movie..and I do enjoy movie marathon..but looking of the routine now macam tak dan nk bermovie marathon! 😂 However fortunately one day, one of my office mate did asked me either I would love to watch Annabelle & Dracula Untold in the same night after office hour. I was immediately nodding head and agreed to join her & a few other office clicks to watch the movies. Hahahha...the rest were OK to watch Annabelle only,but as for me & Alia we agreed to have movie marathon.

Annabelle is a horror film, from the Director of The Conjuring. Mmg seram la. Asyik terjerit2 je la I in tht cinema. 😂😂😂. Overall I was enjoying watching ths movie la. Hurm however as for the second movie, Dracula Untold, it was a bit slow movie although it is a thriller action genre. After 1 hour in the movie hall, I dah ZzzzzZz. Alia was watching the movie till the end. We reached home around 12.30 midnight. Hahahhahahaha. I can conclude tht due to aging factor maybe... I cannot have movie marathon at night anymore. Hahahahhahahahahaha.

Me, Alia, E & Sam. One more Bayda..She was not in d pic😉

Annabelle, me & Alia. #horrorgiler

I can mark this as one of my #100happydays for 2014. 😇😁

self reminder

People make mistake...
But this kind of mistake will be first and last..
Always telling myself that they are hunters and ghosts. And don't ever ever trust them.. sekelumit pun... they don't deserve you..
And always hold the main principle, be nice to others and because of that I am totally against any act of revenge. Why? I do believe life is a karma.. you do good, you get good.. you do bad, you get bad too. Don't put blame to others cos again when you pointing out your finger, the other fingers are pointing back at you.
Being possitive must be a cliche, but it works when life is treating unfair or fallback.
Trust me...
Ya Allah... peluklah aku sekejap pun jadilah hingga hilang lelahku.. Please Allah...

by default to end

Thanks for being the best person I've ever known...for treating me like no one has treated me as special as you did before. I'm glad to know you in my journey....

-truly from heart-

Berhabuk... and never lose hope

It has been a long time since I logged into blogspot and looked at my last writing. Nearly 1 year and half I think, I have been so ignorance and don't have any instinct to post my thoughts in a stream-of-consciousness peace of mind manner...

Life is so BAU (business-as usual) recently. Something happened, one week after life as I knew was taken away from me in 2013, yes, it was last year. I was standing on my own two feet and determining my destiny-one door at that time. After a while, I realized that everything happens for a reason. All I need is to have faith and always be positive into it. Seem like God have good plan for me :). I moved on.. Taking life easily and relaxing. Told to myself - when life comes crashing down and you see is the dark rugged ground, never lose hope. Keep walking..keep climbing...keep dancing by your own beat.

I guess I'm writing a motivational entry today :) Telling you...telling myself that life is always like a curve. That's giving you some flavors and to some extent teach you to be a better person. Better could be in so many forms.. ya I guess.

When life does not treating you good...never never lose hope. Never losing hope is something that has only made the long, straight road a little easier to travel. To have hope is one of the wisest ways to live. Although this path is straight, if you look closely, you can see that the slope of the path increases. That is life and isn't it complicated? Hahaha... Well, we are human.. we have emotion. We play with our emotion. I went through some difficult phases in life too, need I say more?

The point to all of that? Well, I wonder how things just fell ever so slightly into place? Just like they were supposed to... Sometimes I think that I wanted it to happen like this, I had no other choice. But it's a two way street.  I cannot call all the shots, it takes two to tango. Things could have turned out very differently. I only hope that they continue to the top of the hill, where the light meets the peak, and in the end, the reward will be worth the struggle and trudge. :)

Told ya..this is very serious entry after a while leaving here...hehehe..
I would like to give thumbs up to a person, special friend I can say who giving me ideas to write this. To advice me the different perspective of the vision of miracle, hope & happiness.
Thank you for sharing me your life journey and gave me another dimensions of thought in life in very very positive way. I appreciated it.

2nd bundle of joy

Please welcome our second edition of clone pride & joy...

This beautiful baby's name is Faiqa Miqayla binti Mohd. Fahmie Idzul.

Date of birthday: 11 March 2013

Dear Miqayla,

Mami promise to love you and your brother with all my heart, to protect you no matter what and to be your guardian dunia akhirat, ameen.

Isn't she so beautiful?

Ignore my confinement face ;p