Most of us have been taught that it's safer and more practical to listen to our heads instead of our hearts. Ya..the mind makes rational decision based on history, while for me the heart connects to something mystical and dynamic.
Ya, I had read this statement from web, telling me that :
While considering any situation in which "follow your heart" crosses our minds, three resources are available to us: feelings ("heart"), intellect ("head"), and intuition ("gut"). Gleaning available information from all three realms is essential to making good decisions.
It's absolutely so true kan?
So...to relate this to my story, most of my entire life basically decision-made come from the head.. from mind...and also not to forget come from people who are closed to my life , ibu, ayah, hubby and best friends!
But....still I don't feel good on it sometimes...ya perhaps most of the time!
Working at TM for several years make me feel tired and bored, specially when all the office political matters happened and the workload of jobs were coming like hell! Penat tau!
And sometimes my heart said ' I'm done here...I'll quit and get a new job'! However somehow the head said 'Where you wanna go? Salary good, you're in the comfort zone...medical health up till family are covered, got bonus every year...stable company..bla..bla..bla'
And yet no decision taken. I'm stuck!
Another example, I have the feeling to further master by this year. My soul whispered ' Go Farah Go! Still my head said ' Wait! Miqael now reaching to 2 years old, looking to my tight deadline of job, stay back office till late... how come I wanna spend time for study kan.. Weekend is my only family time and I don't really dare to sacrifice it! Some more I need money for that too....'
And again....I need to follow my mind....
There are lots of examples in my life to show that I'm keeping follow my mind rather than emotion/heart.... That's the safer way, isn't it?
Well.....I wish one day I will make decision without think so many times....and see what's the consequence.... Perhaps the feeling of the satisfaction is spectacular! I remembered one of my friend, she immediately resign from TM and just follow her wants to further masters @ UK... and I can see how happy is she....by looking to her FB pics!
If I wanna go for bag pack traveling to Europe for example....can I just follow my heart instead of the head? Wow....that's so difficult things to do. I think as for the budget/ money-wise, I can still manage it... I can simply apply for unpaid leave just in case my boss don't allow me to apply long leave! ;p Leaving my son with hubby? Oh.....that one quite difficult.... Still the logic said better not to go.....
*sigh*
I want everyday to be my best moment to go through in life....
Miqael is the best thing I have in life.... still....
Hey, that's doesn't mean that my life is so pathetic ok!
