Tired eyes.. (ya can see the clear eyebag)
Tired of the cries
Tired of the lies
Sick of the deciet
Sick of the defeat
Taking no for an answer, but I've still been beat...
Less beats to my heart, a slow and rapid start....
The faster it goes as the pain begins to show
Can't cover it up no more, everything is out..
Wired mouth, can't speak the truth
Trapped in a box. But I am slowly getting loose....
I broke traditon, you did either... ya we broke tradition, sometimes our tries are outside the lines..
We have been conditioned to not make mistakes... but we cannot live that way.
Cause why?
Cause we are human being.
We are not angels
We are not Mahsum like Prophets.
I am tired..
Just tired..
Of all the things..
Allah...can you send angels to give me biggest hugs. Ya.. I need a cuddle.
#not100happydays
Wednesday, October 8, 2014
Movie Marathon
I remembered the last time I had a movie marathon with my ex uni friends was six years ago.. Maigoddd SIX years ago?? Chop let me think what movies were that.. hurmm..hurm.. ha.. they were The Curious Case of Benjamin Button & Dark Knight kot. Yup...that was the last time. Yup... with Lea, Nadia, Nermin, Cza and few familiar faces whose I forgot the names. Hehehee.
I love watching movie..and I do enjoy movie marathon..but looking of the routine now macam tak dan nk bermovie marathon! π However fortunately one day, one of my office mate did asked me either I would love to watch Annabelle & Dracula Untold in the same night after office hour. I was immediately nodding head and agreed to join her & a few other office clicks to watch the movies. Hahahha...the rest were OK to watch Annabelle only,but as for me & Alia we agreed to have movie marathon.
Annabelle is a horror film, from the Director of The Conjuring. Mmg seram la. Asyik terjerit2 je la I in tht cinema. πππ. Overall I was enjoying watching ths movie la. Hurm however as for the second movie, Dracula Untold, it was a bit slow movie although it is a thriller action genre. After 1 hour in the movie hall, I dah ZzzzzZz. Alia was watching the movie till the end. We reached home around 12.30 midnight. Hahahhahahaha. I can conclude tht due to aging factor maybe... I cannot have movie marathon at night anymore. Hahahahhahahahahaha.
I can mark this as one of my #100happydays for 2014. ππ
I love watching movie..and I do enjoy movie marathon..but looking of the routine now macam tak dan nk bermovie marathon! π However fortunately one day, one of my office mate did asked me either I would love to watch Annabelle & Dracula Untold in the same night after office hour. I was immediately nodding head and agreed to join her & a few other office clicks to watch the movies. Hahahha...the rest were OK to watch Annabelle only,but as for me & Alia we agreed to have movie marathon.
Annabelle is a horror film, from the Director of The Conjuring. Mmg seram la. Asyik terjerit2 je la I in tht cinema. πππ. Overall I was enjoying watching ths movie la. Hurm however as for the second movie, Dracula Untold, it was a bit slow movie although it is a thriller action genre. After 1 hour in the movie hall, I dah ZzzzzZz. Alia was watching the movie till the end. We reached home around 12.30 midnight. Hahahhahahaha. I can conclude tht due to aging factor maybe... I cannot have movie marathon at night anymore. Hahahahhahahahahaha.
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| Me, Alia, E & Sam. One more Bayda..She was not in d picπ |
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| Annabelle, me & Alia. #horrorgiler |
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
self reminder
People make mistake...
But this kind of mistake will be first and last..
Always telling myself that they are hunters and ghosts. And don't ever ever trust them.. sekelumit pun... they don't deserve you..
And always hold the main principle, be nice to others and because of that I am totally against any act of revenge. Why? I do believe life is a karma.. you do good, you get good.. you do bad, you get bad too. Don't put blame to others cos again when you pointing out your finger, the other fingers are pointing back at you.
Being possitive must be a cliche, but it works when life is treating unfair or fallback.
Trust me...
Ya Allah... peluklah aku sekejap pun jadilah hingga hilang lelahku.. Please Allah...
But this kind of mistake will be first and last..
Always telling myself that they are hunters and ghosts. And don't ever ever trust them.. sekelumit pun... they don't deserve you..
And always hold the main principle, be nice to others and because of that I am totally against any act of revenge. Why? I do believe life is a karma.. you do good, you get good.. you do bad, you get bad too. Don't put blame to others cos again when you pointing out your finger, the other fingers are pointing back at you.
Being possitive must be a cliche, but it works when life is treating unfair or fallback.
Trust me...
Ya Allah... peluklah aku sekejap pun jadilah hingga hilang lelahku.. Please Allah...
Saturday, August 16, 2014
by default to end
Thanks for being the best person I've ever known...for treating me like no one has treated me as special as you did before. I'm glad to know you in my journey....
-truly from heart-
-truly from heart-
Saturday, August 9, 2014
Berhabuk... and never lose hope
It has been a long time since I logged into blogspot and looked at my last writing. Nearly 1 year and half I think, I have been so ignorance and don't have any instinct to post my thoughts in a stream-of-consciousness peace of mind manner...
Life is so BAU (business-as usual) recently. Something happened, one week after life as I knew was taken away from me in 2013, yes, it was last year. I was standing on my own two feet and determining my destiny-one door at that time. After a while, I realized that everything happens for a reason. All I need is to have faith and always be positive into it. Seem like God have good plan for me :). I moved on.. Taking life easily and relaxing. Told to myself - when life comes crashing down and you see is the dark rugged ground, never lose hope. Keep walking..keep climbing...keep dancing by your own beat.
I guess I'm writing a motivational entry today :) Telling you...telling myself that life is always like a curve. That's giving you some flavors and to some extent teach you to be a better person. Better could be in so many forms.. ya I guess.
When life does not treating you good...never never lose hope. Never losing hope is something that has only made the long, straight road a little easier to travel. To have hope is one of the wisest ways to live. Although this path is straight, if you look closely, you can see that the slope of the path increases. That is life and isn't it complicated? Hahaha... Well, we are human.. we have emotion. We play with our emotion. I went through some difficult phases in life too, need I say more?
The point to all of that? Well, I wonder how things just fell ever so slightly into place? Just like they were supposed to... Sometimes I think that I wanted it to happen like this, I had no other choice. But it's a two way street. I cannot call all the shots, it takes two to tango. Things could have turned out very differently. I only hope that they continue to the top of the hill, where the light meets the peak, and in the end, the reward will be worth the struggle and trudge. :)
Told ya..this is very serious entry after a while leaving here...hehehe..
I would like to give thumbs up to a person, special friend I can say who giving me ideas to write this. To advice me the different perspective of the vision of miracle, hope & happiness.
Thank you for sharing me your life journey and gave me another dimensions of thought in life in very very positive way. I appreciated it.
Life is so BAU (business-as usual) recently. Something happened, one week after life as I knew was taken away from me in 2013, yes, it was last year. I was standing on my own two feet and determining my destiny-one door at that time. After a while, I realized that everything happens for a reason. All I need is to have faith and always be positive into it. Seem like God have good plan for me :). I moved on.. Taking life easily and relaxing. Told to myself - when life comes crashing down and you see is the dark rugged ground, never lose hope. Keep walking..keep climbing...keep dancing by your own beat.
I guess I'm writing a motivational entry today :) Telling you...telling myself that life is always like a curve. That's giving you some flavors and to some extent teach you to be a better person. Better could be in so many forms.. ya I guess.
When life does not treating you good...never never lose hope. Never losing hope is something that has only made the long, straight road a little easier to travel. To have hope is one of the wisest ways to live. Although this path is straight, if you look closely, you can see that the slope of the path increases. That is life and isn't it complicated? Hahaha... Well, we are human.. we have emotion. We play with our emotion. I went through some difficult phases in life too, need I say more?
The point to all of that? Well, I wonder how things just fell ever so slightly into place? Just like they were supposed to... Sometimes I think that I wanted it to happen like this, I had no other choice. But it's a two way street. I cannot call all the shots, it takes two to tango. Things could have turned out very differently. I only hope that they continue to the top of the hill, where the light meets the peak, and in the end, the reward will be worth the struggle and trudge. :)
Told ya..this is very serious entry after a while leaving here...hehehe..
I would like to give thumbs up to a person, special friend I can say who giving me ideas to write this. To advice me the different perspective of the vision of miracle, hope & happiness.
Thank you for sharing me your life journey and gave me another dimensions of thought in life in very very positive way. I appreciated it.
Friday, August 8, 2014
2nd bundle of joy
Please welcome our second edition of clone pride & joy...
This beautiful baby's name is Faiqa Miqayla binti Mohd. Fahmie Idzul.
Date of birthday: 11 March 2013
Dear Miqayla,
Mami promise to love you and your brother with all my heart, to protect you no matter what and to be your guardian dunia akhirat, ameen.
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| Isn't she so beautiful? |
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| Ignore my confinement face ;p |
Thursday, February 14, 2013
Baby Shower katenyerrr....
But before that...I did my own research on the ritual to have 'baby shower'... Actually, Baby Shower as a term is relatively new, but the celebrations and rituals associated with pregnancy and childbirth are both ancient, traditional & enduring you know! In Malay custom, we call it as ' adat melenggang perut', but in differently practice where it is a custom done on a 7 months pregnant lady and it aims to position the baby in the stomach in its proper place, which is the head at the door of the womb. And also it is being conducted with a very traditional way with have own equipment and steps (hahha...this one I found from Wiki:):
- 7 pieces of different colors of cloth
- 1 bushel of rice
- 1 coconuts
- Some thread veins
- A trunk resin
- A little coconut oil/ massage oil
- Some candles
- Etc...
Hahahhaa....but in my case, I don't really experienced my baby shower to be very complicated and traditionally done as above.... I just want to have chill and chat time with friends and families maybe! It's more on get together session la.... where you can share stories and snap pics of course! In short, my baby shower's idea was contemporary way where you can get together with friends and there shouldn't be any set rule to this! It's just makan makan...laughing....chatting & release stress :)
So...the idea was...hahhaha... It's was spontaneous outing! I told Mitchel & Izzat (both are my best buddies) that this time pregnancy I feel to throw my own baby shower party. They laughed..and they suggested that we could go outing at KLCC . Since Famy was out station, so I agreed to join them outing on weekend time. The plan was watching movie & lepaking at Ben's Place KLCC. Hahahha... guess what movie that I watched? Hansel & Gretel!!!!!! Horror sgt tgk witches die.... But I just tutupkan mata bila babak horror tu!
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| Movie that we watched! |
Session chill, chat & laugh... ops... Mitchy & Izzat gave surprise gift! A cute soft toy bear :)
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| My baby shower's cup cake! |
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| Ignore my new nose & cheek! Hahhaha.. this is 8 months pregnancy ya! |
Overall I was happy on that day! It's made my day......
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