Can I follow my heart instead of my head?

Most of us have been taught that it's safer and more practical to listen to our heads instead of our hearts. Ya..the mind makes rational decision based on history, while for me the heart connects to something mystical and dynamic.
Ya, I had read this statement from web, telling me that :
While considering any situation in which "follow your heart" crosses our minds, three resources are available to us: feelings ("heart"), intellect ("head"), and intuition ("gut"). Gleaning available information from all three realms is essential to making good decisions.
It's absolutely so true kan?
So...to relate this to my story, most of my entire life basically decision-made come from the head.. from mind...and also not to forget come from people who are closed to my life , ibu, ayah, hubby and best friends!

But....still I don't feel good on it sometimes...ya perhaps most of the time!

Working at TM for several years make me feel tired and bored, specially when all the office political matters happened and the workload of jobs were coming like hell! Penat tau!
And sometimes my heart said ' I'm done here...I'll quit and get a new job'! However somehow the head said 'Where you wanna go? Salary good, you're in the comfort zone...medical health up till family are covered, got bonus every year...stable company..bla..bla..bla'
And yet no decision taken. I'm stuck!

Another example, I have the feeling to further master by this year. My soul whispered ' Go Farah Go! Still my head said ' Wait! Miqael now reaching to 2 years old, looking to my tight deadline of job, stay back office till late... how come I wanna spend time for study kan.. Weekend is my only family time and I don't really dare to sacrifice it! Some more I need money for that too....'
And again....I need to follow my mind....

There are lots of examples in my life to show that I'm keeping follow my mind rather than emotion/heart.... That's the safer way, isn't it?

Well.....I wish one day I will make decision without think so many times....and see what's the consequence.... Perhaps the feeling of the satisfaction is spectacular! I remembered one of my friend, she immediately resign from TM and just follow her wants to further masters @ UK... and I can see how happy is she....by looking to her FB pics!

If I wanna go for bag pack traveling to Europe for example....can I just follow my heart instead of the head? Wow....that's so difficult things to do. I think as for the budget/ money-wise, I can still manage it... I can simply apply for unpaid leave just in case my boss don't allow me to apply long leave! ;p Leaving my son with hubby? Oh.....that one quite difficult.... Still the logic said better not to go.....
*sigh*

I want everyday to be my best moment to go through in life....
Miqael is the best thing I have in life.... still....

Hey, that's doesn't mean that my life is so pathetic ok!

A bliss!

This morning I woke up with a big grin :D

Mane tak nye hari wilayah. Girangnye la hati x payah drive heading to Jalan Pantai Bahru after sending Miqa to his babysitter's house. Ops, Auntie Rose asked my permission to bring Miqa to Zoo together with her grandsons, ha aku ape lagi mcm orang disorongkan bantal la... at least lame sikit tido aku bile xde anak kecik kan... Da lame wooo x rase nikmat bangun tido sampai tengahri woooo.... ;) Told you already I'm not a good role model mom! Dang!

So guess lepas hantar Miqa, aku continue tidur sampai lah pukul 1 tgahri! Hah amik ko! Same goes to Famy! Nikmat betul...

Bangun2 terus lapar n kami berdua siap2 nak gi makan. Siap2 semua da pukul 2.30 pm.. Manelah nk dapat lauk sedap2 lagi da.. Aku nk masak Famy said x payah cos nak hantar service kereta lagi so kalau tgu aku masak lg lambat! So fast game katenye...;) kiteorg makan luar! Pilih lunch @ Mr Teppayaki! Burpp.... Full until ke petang ;))

Erk...actually bukan itu yang aku nak citer kan.. hihihi..

Ha... mase siap2 nak keluar tu, tergerak hati nak pakai semula my anniversary couple ring la.It is a silver ring with our names there. Hey that ring dah nak dekat 7 tahun usianye..still nice & berkilat! ;) but sayangggggggg.... CANNOT FIT INTO MY FINGER ANYMORE, i mean ring finger la, muat pulak dekat little finger! Mcm nak nangis rasenye.... bile tgk jari aku da bulat2 macam donut / cendawan butang! Huarghhhhhhhh....

How to get back my 44.7 kg back ni..... Aduss!

Xpe, u know what...

It's a wake up call for me to do something!

Serious.... I don't dare to see myself looks like below pic... though I know it's will be possible kan... (when I see my genetic)

Sometimes, jealous tgk kawan2 yang beranak 3,4 tp body maintain...

Okla... ayat nak sedapkan hati...

At least I'm not that bad la kan....bersyukur la dengan nikmat Allah Taala kasik ni, kalau Dia tarik... isk... Nauzubillah. Ok Ok....

Alhamdulillah for everything in my life.... :)

Flash back: Cikgu Mad Yahya

I met my Standard-6 teacher this morning, when I had breakfast with ibu & ayah before heading back to Kl, Cikgu Mad Yahya! He's one of my favourite teacher during primary school! He taught my hatred subject with his easy way...hurm ape lagi lah kalau tak Math kan! I was really bad in calculating...until now I guess ;)

Oklah back to the story of Cikgu Mad... He's really awesome & good looking cikgu with his fatherly way in teaching his students! Each of us during that time had unique nick names given by him! Nyet Nyet lah...Erra Fazira lah....Budak mate 4 lah...Kecik lah...Mok lah... hihihi (many more names that I can't recall here >sigh<) He was also sporting & multi-tasking teacher ok! Not only can taught us Math, in fact he used to guide us in dancing this traditional dance when we need to perform the art perfomance during our graduation day! Hahahaha.... again too bad cause I can't recall the names of the dancing! But, I was playing role as a dayang on that time, together with Kak Ai & Ieyra... Syahrul was as a princess.... can't remember who was the prince, between Adam or Hafiz! Hihihihihi....

He also taught us Pendidikan Jasmani ok! Hurm....What a small school with many talented & multi tasking teacher! That's made we closed each other....

I remembered one day we were be punished because of making loud and Cikgu Mad asked us to sit in a pair between girls & boys. No more sit with our bestfriend/selected friend!
He said he wanted bersandingkan kiteorang! I remembered boys were like cheer up saying 'Yeaahhhh'..... hihihihihi....

Arghh......the memory flaming inside my head again........

Wish can go back during that time! Errr...not go back, maybe I should wish just to 'visit' that time...

What about you all? Any specific from your past time, would you like to visit?

our way of having fun! kekekek

Hey, tengok ape yang kami buat weekend time!

Famy is being fucking sporting husband when I forced him to try my face mask!

Hahahahaha......

Miqa? Oooh he was sleeping during this time and mummy & daddy were having fun!

Advertorial: Samsung Galaxy S2

5 months ago, personally when somebody asked me if I get the opportunity to change my Samsung Galaxy Ace to other brand of phone, I said I will choose Samsung Galaxy S2.

And he/she like what? Why S2, why not iPhone?..... I don't know it's just come naturally from my heart... I don't have an exact answer why I don't choose iPhone.

And at last, just 2 days before 2011 ended, I received a new gift from hubby! Yeehahhaaaaa! Thanks yang! Will appreciate it! He knows how much I like this phone ;)

Errr.. Actually, that's not what exactly what I want to say... The thing that I want to share here is how I'm experiencing this type of Android phone so far.

Apparently, I did some research when I was have this intention to replace my Samsung Ace with S2 couple months ago ;) ... Just to share ya! ( Sorry the table is lo-res visual, couldn't get the hi-res one) hihihi....

But let me sum in general, based on above table, in terms of megapixel of camera, S2 got 8 megapixel while iPhone got 5. Both can do Film in HD! In terms of call time, S2 manage to talk up to 18.2 hours (GSM)/ 8.4 hours (3G Network), while iPhone up to 7 hours (3G) and up to 14 hours (2G). Next is standby time for S2 is up to 710 hours! Meanwhile iPhone is up to 300 hours. When we speak about the processor, S2 standardize lah as expected by the Android technology, two processor cores with the processor speed 1.2 GHz. The operating system for S2 is using Android 2.3 (Gingerbread) and for iPhone is iOS 4! In which Apple have their own A4 processor which is more prowerful and energy-efficient. As for the screen resolution, S2 got 800x480 pixels, while iPhone 640x960 pixels (326 ppi). In terms of the screen size for S2 is 4.27" while iPone is 3.5".

In overall, both are the best smartphones! For those who like to download those fantastic applications, iPhone is the best choice, nak nak bile Apple latest 'baby' iPhone 4S is in the market already. However, for those who prefer total solution which can cover all aspect of the value added services in the smartphone, go for S2 and the quality of picture is also superb plus the processing is quite faster because S2 is using the powerful encryption hardware! Web browsing is very quick even via Wi-Fi networks, and you won’t face any problem with loading and playing even the most “heavy” games on Samsung’s flagship. Hihihi... ..

Yet, I still admit iPhone's design is quite impressive compare to S2... hihihi, but still... don't judge book by its cover what! Hihihihihi.... Jgn mare ya iPhone lovers! ;)

But having said that, let’s return to the original question, iPhone 4 vs Samsung Galaxy s2 – which one is better? I’ve come to the conclusion that the best mobile phone is the Samsung Galaxy s2, although the iPhone 4 is perfectly fine, with effective programmes and useful functions to serve as a business phone and also as a private phone. It’s really just a question of personal taste!

Itu my personal view la kan... Different people have different view !Da name pun Advertorial! Hihihihi.....

my farewell 2011 events

I am suppose to post this earlier than my previous post... hihihihi....
Takpela just to say bye2 to all the memories in 2011! Cool...

Cakes for my boys! Happiness with the boys :)

with friends & office mates! Great!

Hubby been warded....

All about miqa :)

2012 already ;))

Hurm, I remembered when I was in Form 2, our art teacher did asked us to visualize how the year of 2010 will be looks like. I was drawing flying cars with the hang traffic light in the sky. And also lifts which can connected between the buildings in the town, not only lift can go down and upstairs. Hihihihihi. And now.....

It's already 2012! Where are the flying cars? Hihihihi

Ok..I have so many things to do before 2012 ended last week, so I couldn't find a minute to wrap up my 2011's event ;( Perhaps can be reviewed one by one...ya at least put a note to the sweetest things in 2011.

• I did my mind recharging by going to Krabi & Phuket. It was awesome trip! I still admired the beauty of the coast and the happiness that I went through there.
• Celebrating my 2 boys' birthday, miqa's first year anniversary & hubby's 30th series age ;) Ya, personally I feel so completed as a woman. Alhamdullilah...
• I did FIKIS' reunion. Fikis is so special in my life, friendship during our child time. Thanks to Ieyra, K.Ai, Ieja & Syahrul for made it happened.
• The sweetest momment with my friends - watching movies, karaoke, shopping, horse back riding, Yuna & Reza Salleh Showcase & dancing class. ;)
• The sweetest momment with my family - Gambang Resort City's outing, balik kg time, get together time with both family me & in laws.

I can't recall all the smiles of me in 2011, but I believe all the best memories will always be part of who am I... it's make my life something....

I promise to put a dot, full stop dot.. for the bad things were happened in 2011. God Knows better, without intentionally writing them down here ;). I believed whatever happened must have a hidden blessing, we never knows what's God set for us, right? I guess the black momments might give an extra courage to be a better person.... Ya...I guess so... >sigh<

So, for this 2012..I have not set a specific requirement except a pray that me, families & friends will always be in a good bless and enjoying life. Ameen.....

Psst: I still hope to get back my 44kg that I lost after getting miqa ;)..hopefully can be achieved by this year...please.....