take a break....

Blog satu tempat untuk aku tulis apa yang aku rase, ape yg aku fikir.....yang paling penting aku tulis blog untuk suami aku tau ape yang aku buat since kiteorg x duduk sekali. Dan jauh sekali aku tulis blog untuk mengaibkan sesiape. Aku cuma luahkan ape yang terbuku dlm hati aku dalam kepala aku, dalam jiwa aku tentang ape2 ajelah yang terjadi dalam kehidupan aku seharian. Kalau pun suami aku tak terbace blog ni, at least aku boleh tersenyum dengan membaca semula tulisan tulisan aku... kalau entries nye sedih atau sakit hati, paling tidak aku boleh bernafas dengan baik setelah aku lepaskan semuanye dalam blog! Itu mungkin cara aku la nak release tension aku. Bukankah setiap org ade cara tersendiri nak hiburkan hati masing2 kan?

Rumah? Aku percaya pada istilah 'Rumah ku syurga ku'...'Home Sweet Home'... Tapi ape jadi dengan aku? Pernah tak korang rase perasaan betapa x bestnye balik rumah sendiri? Mesti tak kan sbb dekat RUMAH lah untuk kite relax2, tido, beristirehat dan buat ape2 yang kite suke la without a limitation. Tapi bende ni xde pada aku.. aku x rase itu rumah aku, aku x rase jiwa aku ada dlm rumah itu.... sbb nye? Aku x reti nak tukarkan perasaan aku dlm bentuk ayat! Aku sendiri x tahu mcmane nak explain tentang betapa aku rasa sangat kosong, sunyi dan xde ape2 bile aku balik rumah aku sendiri! Aku x kate semua org dalam rumah itu layan aku buruk, takkkkk...... it's just aku x nampak aku sayang rumah itu, aku x suka duduk di rumah itu! Ya, the exact word is aku rasa kosong! Sedih bukan? Aku jadik sedih sebab aku kalah dengan perasaan aku sendiri. Aku sedih sebab aku x cukup kuat bila aku sorang sbb ikatan perkahwinan tu buat aku jadi manja, mengharap dan bergantung! Kalau lah aku still bujang, aku rase aku tak peduli pun pasal tu semua. Ntahlah, mungkin aku lebih sensitif sekarang! Sensitif seorang isteri, salah ke aku? Aku kene faham keadaan, situasi dan aku kene berkorban??? Berat sebenarnye untuk aku faham keadaan, situasi dan kene berkorban dalam mase setahun ni. Aku rase aku belum cukup sabar untuk itu.......

what a pity woman named me!

Got a NICI

Thanks kak wawa for a cute tortoise name, NICI (tgk kaki die ade tulis NICI)......

Like Gya & kak Huda, NICI had made my day!

Cheers~~~

lawak pukul 4 pagi!

Anda ada masalah cinta? Dail 53334....

Dail punya dail asyik kene reject aje!

hahahahaa... lawak pukul 4 pagi!

RP Teambuilding!

Pagi!
Satria RP... Satria RP... RP1.... RP1..... TM.... Malaysia......

what can i say about this? so fun n exciting!

hahahha...x boleh diceritakan dengan kata2...semuanye pengalaman menarik!
oklah..let's conclude the whole experiences mase aku dengan kawan2 dekat sane [luckily, aku , gya n ila satu batch, sorry to ennie x dpt join our batch, xpe ennie punye batch pun lagi gempak nanti;( ]

best experiences:
1. dapat team kepala gila2 - en jusoh, zaha, roslan, mr deva, suha, kak sham (mujur she was also gila2 n sporting!), shah SPDF & Jeff PD.
2. Bamboo rafting xtvt - i was really enjoy this, so fun! we were champion tau! overall, aku dah x takut air dah, water confident aku dah tinggi sket la! ;)
3. Junggle Trekking - banyak woo kalori aku terbakar ni, berpeluh2.....
4. Karaoke - time ni best sbb aku, gya, ila, suha, arai dpt karaoke free tau, tapi kalau si din tu x join lagi best kot! hahahha....mula2 nmpk mamat ni cam cecomel je tp kalau layan sgt poning wooo...;)
5. Flying Fox - aku suka ni tapi sayang aku x dpt nk lunjur kaki sbb injured mase junggle trekking, so kaki aku terkangkang mase buat ni! gayat sehhhhh... aku menjerit sakan je la!
6. Roomates yang best - roomates aku gya, huda n wawa.... best woo! semua nye baik hati, jenis x kisah n pemurah....barang2 bole share2 tau! sharing is caring! ;)

bad experience:
1. Mase junggle trekking aku jatuh terhentak mase nak turun bukit... sakit sampai skrg terasa lagi! nak drive pun susah....nak buang air n 'yak' pun susah! mood aku sikit x best la sbb sakit ni. ingat nanti balik kg nk g urut!

hurm....overall aku sangat happy dekat Marina Cove, Lumut.... tapi tu lah bende nak jadik kan, kalau aku lebih hati2 mase junggle trekking tu maybe aku x jatuh kot.... sakit woo....

psst: nanti aku share all the fun pics k!

It's hurting me, I'm sorry......

I didn't know why the hell I was there. Talking to a person that I did not meet for a long long time and I put the expectation to believe on his words. I guess I'm doing better then! He said:

Begitulah jugak dengan hidup kita nih, jawapan hidup, kebahagiaan dan kesusahan, apa-apa ajelah yang kita cari selama ini, semuanya tuh berada di mana-mana. Terpulang pada kita nak mencarinya.

So then I talk to myself as I persuade my little adik...
I guess I expected better.I only hoped for a "How are you doing?"Or a "Are you well?"Or a "How's work?"I guess I hoped too much. I shouldn't said something hurting you. And it's will hurting me as well! But you are so darling to me.... You are my husband...

For that.... I would like to ask for your forgiveness dear... I'm so sorry....

reminder to me!

I don't actually have time to be lounging and blogging, so I'll do this entry in a point form. hehehe just to update and remind myself! ;)

tralallaaa..

I'm just came back from the Business Plan Workshop @ Colmar Tropicale, Bkt Tinggi! It was interesting but plain for me! First experience and average for me! Hahaha.. however, I got to know many people there....;p

*Blink Blink*

I'm at kerteh, right now!

Tralallala......

Tommorow will be back to KL and as usual come to office on monday! Oh, what a blues monday soon!

Tralallala.......

I need to clean up all the filing and discuss with my boss on the new structure, specifically on my job scope! Oh, what a boring job!

Hurm...Ngee..Ngeee....

I'm thinking to go back kampung next week.... Ibu said Atuk is feeling not well! Watch me get so nervous I can’t sleep. Allah, please give the strenght to Atuk..amennn...

I think that’s all the big news I have. I can’t think of anything else. How bout some small news?

Hahahaha....

I cooked meggi laksa for Famy and he liked it very much! Mmmmmmmm..............

I saw my picture taken at Sara's wedding (sara is my cousin) and then I realized on my double chin and rounded face! I'm becoming fat now! Noooooooooooooooooooooooooo..........

the best momment is a study time!

An old memory at IIUM got me in a longing (big smile ;D).

I still remember the momment... Lea, Bed, Na, Linda, Him as well as my Bosnian mates, Nermin, Meldina, Dzenan & Mirza were there (bigger smile ;DD). We need to organize an event of the Professional Etiquette Course for our final assessment.

In the same morning smell, same person, same thought but different time, we were bond together as PR Colleagues. I miss that each momment. The momment we had been scolded by Sir Sheikh Alwi, one of our PR instructor, all of us still keeping a big grin though we hated him so much! Among of us, Nermin had shown his most hatred to Sir Alwi. My mind still can captured kinda off naughty and irritating faces made up by him while Sir Alwi shouted 'bodoh!' 'stupid'! 'bloody hell' to us! Ekekekekekekeke........

That's only some part of the old chapter that I wanna share..... ;p

The point is Lea and me do miss Nermin so much. We were closed with him during the time. Ya, after night class, three of us will drove to Destina, Burger King or else McD. We learned Bosnian Language, sharing the secrets, thoughts & ideas together. To me, Nermin is just Nermin. He's not arrogant like an ordinary IIUM European Students, somehow still gentlemen, confident and have sense of humour. He used to drive me out for supper while my feet was injured though I knew he just wanna copying our (me & lea) notes at the same time for the exam! ;) I still can remember during the exam time again, me & Lea were awake along the night to do revision, he will texting either both of us just to disturb and asking silly silly question like 'hey, do u think it's gonna rain tomorrow?' or like 'fara likes purple and u Lea what color you like most?'! We knew he did'nt want us to study and score in the paper! (biggest smile ;DDD)

And the truth is..... he found me in the facebook yesterday! We just-in-time having a chit chat! OMG..... he asked about Lea! When did both of us got married! And he laughed when I informed Lea's baby name is Danish,
'hey she should put Nermin!'
'Oh no... Mohd Nermin?!!' I said..... 'Hey boy, when you wanna get married?' I asked.
'The lifestyle and culture got me in a dilemma!' he replied
'Blur! Whut do u mean?'
'Here is not like M'sia, it's hard to find virgin girl anymore!'
I laughed more...... 'Whutt? U r acting like a malay man now ha...so do u think u r still virgin too?'
'Of course not! ;) but for me virginity is important for a muslim lady, it's a sign of loyalty and obviously i wanna have a loyal wife!'
he continued 'At my place, it's common if a wife having an affair with another man!'
Ya..... I still remember Nermin's word 3 years back, 'There is many Muslims at Bosnia but rarely to see the one who can perform prayer'.

However we're actually having a great online time! Seem like he's happy to be a PR Practitioner there.... Best of luck to you Ner!

psst:/ i'll try to search his pic and upload it here ok!