a fact that women should know

Here's the truth, ladies.

Being pretty doesn't keep a man. 

Being honest doesn't keep a man. 

Being loyal doesn't keep a man. 

Treating a man good doesn't keep a man. 

Being there for a man doesn't keep a man. 

Caring about a man doesn't keep a man. 

Making an effort doesn't keep a man. 

Paying attention to a man doesn't keep a man. 

Spending time with a man doesn't keep a man.

You could have the best intentions, you could have the most sincere feelings, and you could be a good woman and you still wouldn't be able to keep a man because ...

THE ONLY WAY TO KEEP A MAN IS IF THAT MAN WANTS TO BE KEPT BY YOU. 

You can't force a man to be with you. You can't beg a man to stay with you. You can't love a man into loving you.

With a man, you could tell he wants to be kept when the relationship gets hard and he does everything to fight for you because a man only fights for a girl he wants to belong to so if he isn't fighting for you when things get hard, then that means he doesn't want to be kept by you anymore.

The moral of this? Don't hold on to a man who doesn't want to be kept by you. No, you're not giving up on him. It's him who gave up on you, and it's you who shouldn't waste any more time than you already have. 

Know when it's time to let go, know when it's time to walk away, and know when it's time for him to be unkept.....

*Gambar sekadar hiasan*
Taken at Twelve Apostle, Melbourne 130516

The strongest girls always fall the hardest

You don’t even have to have been in a real and legitimate relationship with her. You didn’t even have to utter those three magic words that everyone waits to hear in romance. You didn’t even have to put labels to what you had. You didn’t have to call her your girlfriend. All you needed to do was express the slightest interest in her and that was more than enough...

You only needed to let her know that you actually had the potential to be something special. You only needed to give her the smallest glimpse of hope, and she took it without hesitation. A few deep gazes into her eyes, a subtle caress of her skin, and an innocent kiss on her cheek, and you had her hooked. 

It was a matter of reeling her in and keeping her with you for the rest of your life...

However, don’t think for one second that she’s weak because you found it a little too easy to actually keep her on a leash. She isn’t some weakling that you can expect to use and abuse at any moment’s notice. She’s not desperate for love and affection although that’s what you may be inclined to believe. In fact, she’s a very strong and independent woman who can stand her own ground and do perfectly fine without you. 

The reason why she bit into this “relationship” so hard is because she’s just a naturally passionate person. She knows that she’s opening herself up to getting hurt and betrayed. She knows that she’s prone to being disappointed a lot. But she doesn’t care. She knows that this is the only way that love should be done – without holding back. She doesn’t want to have any reservations. If she falls and gets hurt, then she’s okay because she knows she has the strength to pick herself back up again.

And after all, she knows that the fact life is no ain't fairy tales... she will always stand to her own voice and head to protect herself...

So if she comes on a little stronger than most women you know, then that shouldn’t be seen as a bad thing. You shouldn’t be intimidated by confidence. You shouldn’t shy away from a woman who wants to express her intimacy for you in various ways. You shouldn’t turn away the girl who has so much love in her heart. She is as strong as they come even though she falls so hard and so easily. Remember that only the strongest of men truly deserve her..

Note: Another masterpiece of a true story of a dreamer wearing a nightmare dress😓

Love yourself (not Justin Bieber 's version)

Mistakes happen. To everyone. No matter what you look like, who you are, what you do for a living, you've made mistakes. We all have and they all suck. I look back on some of my mistakes and literally cringe. But you know what? It doesn't do you any good to focus on them. Take what you can from them, learn from them, and then move the hell on...
Surprisingly you will love and respect yourself more and more...

Have Faith part 3

Kau tahu salah satu cara nak tenang?
Dengan berlapang dada, lalu kau menang.
Bukan untuk mereka, tapi untuk kau juga...

Have Faith part 2

Even if its yours you cannot do anything to make it stay....

have faith

Sepertimana mudah Tuhan ubah yang pernah menyayang untuk meninggalkan, pasti kau tak sangka mudah juga suatu hari Tuhan pudarkan sayang yang tak mampu kau tinggalkan. Have faith.

keep moving...keep walking...keep running...

In my colorful and short life, I realized that not everything is supposed to become something beautiful and long lasting. Sometimes people come into my life to show me what is right and what is wrong, to show me who should I could be, to teach me to love myself, to teach me to protect my heart first...to protect my kids... to make me feel better for a little while, or to just be someone to walk with at night and spill my life to whatever that he or she feel good with it.

Not everyone is going to stay forever...the feeling towards somebody will never ever be lasting.

But at the end.. I know Ibu & Ayah will always be a place that I could be return to... and I know my husband will be the one who will love me unconditionally. Insyallah..

Whatever white and black things happened in my life, I still have to keep on going and thank them for what they have given me... joy, happiness, sadness, excitement, painful, sympathy, empathy..meaningless and any of related adjectives words.

Keep moving....keep moving....keep moving...

#moveonedt2

yes..time will heal everything

What can heal a broken heart?

A. Time
B. Revenge
C. New love

I tick A. :)
#moveon

Rooftop at Bangkok

Over the last few years, I believe that Bangkok has grown a mantle of glamour and sophisticated and new visitors will be elated by its trendy bars,club & restaurants. Yeay..knowing Bangkok as the city of entertainment, chilling & lepak with awesome people in your life is just perfect!
I love skybar at Sirocco , Lebua. It was a nice heaven place..I swear! The dessert of choc lava was to die for.

Jgn dinilai rupa yang buruk! Seriously I tell u this choc lava taste so goodddddddd. :))

Oh lupe nak perkenalkan the guy with us in the picture is Zul, Hajar's good friend and coincidently be our good friend too. Such a good company coz he is staying & working at Bangkok. Oh he can speaks Thai too. Hahahaha. And oh ya he is single lagi. ;) and I think still available kot. Bole cari die kat my instagram. ;p

More info about Sirocco Lebua can just google je kot. You know where to find. From Sukhumvit we took a cab, cost us around $200 Thai baht (lebih kurang RM20).

The night before we lepak at Sirocco, we went to Above Eleven Rooftop, just nearby from our hotel. Not bad jugala.. the place was quit cozy,not so elegant like Sirocco but still.... a good place to get a beautiful view of the Bangkok City.
Again...more about Above Eleven can just google.;p.
Now i'll let the pictures speak for themselves :)

Halal food in the heart of Bangkok City ~ Usman Thai Food

I think I should post this. When the girls & I were having our ladies' trip at Bangkok last month, we  found a good, cozy & yummy place to eat. And it was a halal thai restaurant! After third time visiting Bangkok, I can say it aint easy to find halal foods there..unless if you went to some areas majority of them are Pakistani & Indian.

Ok back to that restaurant, the place called Usman Restaurant, it is located at Sukhumvit, high-end area where you can find Terminal 21 Shopping Mall nearby. But this restaurant is exactly situated next to Imperial Queen's Park Hotel. Search Sukhumvit Soi 22 road and after 5 minutes walk you can find a yellow signboard of  'Usman Halal Thai Restaurant'.

From 5, I gave 4 1/2 stars. ✔✔✔✔✅ ;).

The sambal belacan is to die for ;)))

Tired....A heart of a woman...

Tired eyes.. (ya can see the clear eyebag)
Tired of the cries
Tired of the lies
Sick of the deciet
Sick of the defeat
Taking no for an answer, but I've still been beat...
Less beats to my heart, a slow and rapid start....
The faster it goes as the pain begins to show
Can't cover it up no more, everything is out..
Wired mouth, can't speak the truth
Trapped in a box. But I am slowly getting loose....
I broke traditon, you did either... ya we broke tradition, sometimes our tries are outside the lines..
We have been conditioned to not make mistakes... but we cannot live that way.

Cause why?

Cause we are human being.
We are not angels
We are not Mahsum like Prophets.

I am tired..
Just tired..
Of all the things..

Allah...can you send angels to give me biggest hugs. Ya.. I need a cuddle.

#not100happydays

Movie Marathon

I remembered the last time I had a movie marathon with my ex uni friends was six years ago.. Maigoddd SIX years ago?? Chop let me think what movies were that.. hurmm..hurm.. ha.. they were The Curious Case of Benjamin Button & Dark Knight kot. Yup...that was the last time. Yup... with Lea, Nadia, Nermin, Cza and few familiar faces whose I forgot the names. Hehehee.

I love watching movie..and I do enjoy movie marathon..but looking of the routine now macam tak dan nk bermovie marathon! 😂 However fortunately one day, one of my office mate did asked me either I would love to watch Annabelle & Dracula Untold in the same night after office hour. I was immediately nodding head and agreed to join her & a few other office clicks to watch the movies. Hahahha...the rest were OK to watch Annabelle only,but as for me & Alia we agreed to have movie marathon.

Annabelle is a horror film, from the Director of The Conjuring. Mmg seram la. Asyik terjerit2 je la I in tht cinema. 😂😂😂. Overall I was enjoying watching ths movie la. Hurm however as for the second movie, Dracula Untold, it was a bit slow movie although it is a thriller action genre. After 1 hour in the movie hall, I dah ZzzzzZz. Alia was watching the movie till the end. We reached home around 12.30 midnight. Hahahhahahaha. I can conclude tht due to aging factor maybe... I cannot have movie marathon at night anymore. Hahahahhahahahahaha.

Me, Alia, E & Sam. One more Bayda..She was not in d pic😉

Annabelle, me & Alia. #horrorgiler

I can mark this as one of my #100happydays for 2014. 😇😁

self reminder

People make mistake...
But this kind of mistake will be first and last..
Always telling myself that they are hunters and ghosts. And don't ever ever trust them.. sekelumit pun... they don't deserve you..
And always hold the main principle, be nice to others and because of that I am totally against any act of revenge. Why? I do believe life is a karma.. you do good, you get good.. you do bad, you get bad too. Don't put blame to others cos again when you pointing out your finger, the other fingers are pointing back at you.
Being possitive must be a cliche, but it works when life is treating unfair or fallback.
Trust me...
Ya Allah... peluklah aku sekejap pun jadilah hingga hilang lelahku.. Please Allah...

by default to end

Thanks for being the best person I've ever known...for treating me like no one has treated me as special as you did before. I'm glad to know you in my journey....

-truly from heart-

Berhabuk... and never lose hope

It has been a long time since I logged into blogspot and looked at my last writing. Nearly 1 year and half I think, I have been so ignorance and don't have any instinct to post my thoughts in a stream-of-consciousness peace of mind manner...

Life is so BAU (business-as usual) recently. Something happened, one week after life as I knew was taken away from me in 2013, yes, it was last year. I was standing on my own two feet and determining my destiny-one door at that time. After a while, I realized that everything happens for a reason. All I need is to have faith and always be positive into it. Seem like God have good plan for me :). I moved on.. Taking life easily and relaxing. Told to myself - when life comes crashing down and you see is the dark rugged ground, never lose hope. Keep walking..keep climbing...keep dancing by your own beat.

I guess I'm writing a motivational entry today :) Telling you...telling myself that life is always like a curve. That's giving you some flavors and to some extent teach you to be a better person. Better could be in so many forms.. ya I guess.

When life does not treating you good...never never lose hope. Never losing hope is something that has only made the long, straight road a little easier to travel. To have hope is one of the wisest ways to live. Although this path is straight, if you look closely, you can see that the slope of the path increases. That is life and isn't it complicated? Hahaha... Well, we are human.. we have emotion. We play with our emotion. I went through some difficult phases in life too, need I say more?

The point to all of that? Well, I wonder how things just fell ever so slightly into place? Just like they were supposed to... Sometimes I think that I wanted it to happen like this, I had no other choice. But it's a two way street.  I cannot call all the shots, it takes two to tango. Things could have turned out very differently. I only hope that they continue to the top of the hill, where the light meets the peak, and in the end, the reward will be worth the struggle and trudge. :)

Told ya..this is very serious entry after a while leaving here...hehehe..
I would like to give thumbs up to a person, special friend I can say who giving me ideas to write this. To advice me the different perspective of the vision of miracle, hope & happiness.
Thank you for sharing me your life journey and gave me another dimensions of thought in life in very very positive way. I appreciated it.

2nd bundle of joy

Please welcome our second edition of clone pride & joy...

This beautiful baby's name is Faiqa Miqayla binti Mohd. Fahmie Idzul.

Date of birthday: 11 March 2013

Dear Miqayla,

Mami promise to love you and your brother with all my heart, to protect you no matter what and to be your guardian dunia akhirat, ameen.

Isn't she so beautiful?

Ignore my confinement face ;p

Baby Shower katenyerrr....

I never experience baby shower celebration while I was pregnant to my first born, Miqael..3 years ago! Hahahhaa....

But before that...I did my own research on the ritual to have 'baby shower'... Actually, Baby Shower as a term is relatively new, but the celebrations and rituals associated with pregnancy and childbirth are both ancient, traditional & enduring you know! In Malay custom, we call it as ' adat melenggang perut', but in differently practice where it is a  custom done on a 7 months pregnant lady and it aims to position the baby in the stomach in its proper place, which is the head at the door of the womb. And also it is being conducted with a very traditional way with have own equipment and steps (hahha...this one I found from Wiki:):

• 7 pieces of different colors of cloth
• 1 bushel of rice
• 1 coconuts
• Some thread veins
• A trunk resin
• A little coconut oil/ massage oil
• Some candles
• Etc...

All the exercises I believe will be conducted by Mak Bidan.... and to incorporate with the Islamic practice, this ceremony will be done with bacaan doa selamat or perhaps kenduri ...etc...

Hahahhaa....but in my case, I don't really experienced my baby shower to be very complicated and traditionally done as above.... I just want to have chill and chat time with friends and families maybe! It's more on get together session la.... where you can share stories and snap pics of course! In short, my baby shower's idea was contemporary way where you can get together with friends and there shouldn't be any set rule to this! It's just makan makan...laughing....chatting & release stress :)

So...the idea was...hahhaha... It's was spontaneous outing! I told Mitchel & Izzat (both are my best buddies) that this time pregnancy I feel to throw my own baby shower party. They laughed..and they suggested that we could go outing at KLCC . Since Famy was out station, so I agreed to join them outing on weekend time. The plan was watching movie & lepaking at Ben's Place KLCC. Hahahha... guess what movie that I watched? Hansel & Gretel!!!!!! Horror sgt tgk witches die.... But I just tutupkan mata bila babak horror tu!

Movie that we watched!

Session chill, chat & laugh... ops... Mitchy & Izzat gave surprise gift! A cute soft toy bear :)

My baby shower's cup cake!

Ignore my new nose & cheek! Hahhaha.. this is 8 months pregnancy ya!

Overall I was happy on that day! It's made my day......

Late post for 2012's sayonara... Welcome 2013!

Finally I can write my 2013 resolution with peace of mind..

Ops before that let's sum the story happened in 2012.  (though it was already a bit late kot!)
2012 for me was a moderate year..... and I may conclude that was not the best year of achievements except to know that I was expecting to a second baby... LOL! Alhamdulillah...
Yes, I did my mind recharging when I brought ibu,ayah, adik & angah to have mini get-together family session at Pangkor Island. Plus, family trip with in laws at Langkawi and I managed to fulfill my dream to do snorkeling at Pulau Payar (since I was never been there after many many many times visit to Langkawi)... Both were great trips!
And not to forget my dream to organize special birthday party for Miqael at McDonald. Fuhhh....
Other than that, were just happy moments get together with friends i.e. bachelorette Izzah's party, lunch time with Gya & Ennie , get together session with Izzat & Mitchel & camping trip to National Park! Cool...
Overall, that were not so much interesting story to tell... but yes Alhamdulillah to God , still lend me His air to breath and feel joy in life....

I said to myself.. whatever bad things need to be removed and improved. I wish I can be better person after this.... better muslim, wife, mummy, daughter, sister, worker and friend..... :)

And as I reflecting my 2012 flashback memories..... I don't have any specific resolution to achieve in 2013. Yang mana tak achieve2 in 2012 pun banyak... Well, I will continue to put extra efforts to reach the miss-achieving goals from the past years! Further Master.. Europe trip.... Saving RM500K.. Buy Microwave +Oven  for me to bake....and many more...

For me just go with the flow.... blend it with the exciting activities to make it more flavorful and meaningful life...... The most important thing, maintaining the happy go lucky energy in myself...so that I will feel young forever.... and... I wish to get 45kg weight after get deliver my second baby! Wuhuuu........ Huhuhuhuhu.....

Some pics to be remembered....
(sorry the events date were not in ordered ;p)

Get together with Ila from NZ

Gedik pic!

Ila in the house again!

Pulau Payar jauh ke tengah... dream place to visit @ Langkawi

Hari raya 2012 Celebration

Miqael started to swim!

Rempit with Rudy, one of office mate @ Corporate Raya event!

Feeling2 muda jadik usherette for Company Dinner. Theme was football!

Hey Kenapa Bah..Kenapa Bah!

Fun Run for Olympic event with bosses

Pangkor trip with Hj. Othman's family

Ade je bahan nak gelak kalau lepak dgn mamat ni!

Our 4th Anniversary Celebration!

Get together with buddies

Hubby's 31 cake

Refresh @ Pangkor

Miqael turns 2 Party

Gangnam style!